troym72 writes: Well, I’ve done it. I’ve moved back to the big city again .. YEEHAAW!
I don’t really know why I moved back to Centralia, IL in the first place … Oh … wait … I do remember. It was for a girl. MISTAKE!
Anyway, that didn’t work out to say the least even though I loved her with all my heart. I guess love isn’t enough to stop drug addiction. I’m glad to be away from her, but at the same time I miss all the great times we had together before her problem became a problem.
Living here in the city again is fun, and exciting. Jamin, Ryan and I are renting 3 bedroom 2 bathroom house in dog town.
I’m hoping that I’ll find Mrs Right soon. I’m 31 and not getting any younger or better looking, although I am making more money every year … hopefully that will make up for my age and lack of rugged handsomeness ;p
There is a girl that I dated shortly after my failed relationship with “the druggie” who is interested in me again. She lives near my hometown over in Illinois. She dumped me back in March for some guy in Georgia that she met on the internet. That didn’t work out and now she wants to get something going with me again.
As tempting as that is, I don’t know if I want to set myself up to be hurt twice by the same person. You know the old saying “Hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice, shame on me.” She’s really attractive (compared to most girls that are interested in me) and fun to be around but she’s about as sharp as a box of rocks. I don’t think she even has a GED.
There’s also another girl that is interested in me, also from my home town. She’s young attractive and fun to be around too (even more so that the girl who dumped me), however, she’s a little too young - only 17. She is still in highschool and plans to go to beauty school after graduation.
Again, the thought of dating her is very tempting to me, however, my practical side is telling me to steer clear if any possibility of jail-time. She has assured me that she has dated guys in there twenties before and her parents don’t care, however that doesn’t mean that they’ll be Ok with her dating someone who’s 31. Not that I’m a bad guy or have bad intentions, but you know how parents are. If I had a 17 year old daughter the only way she’d be dating someone 31 is if I was six feet under and unable to dig may way out to stop her.
Its getting to the point that I get depressed when I see a young happy family together out having a good time. I look at them and think, “That should be me. What is wrong with me that I can’t find hapiness like that?” Its not that I don’t enjoy being single sometimes. Its just that I’ve already seen how full-filling life can be when you’re with someone you really love and who really loves you back. There’s nothing else more satisfying in the whole world than loving someone so much you’d do anything for them and knowing they feel the same way about you.
Call me a dreamer or a romantic, but I pray every day that I can have that again. At the same time, I know that every day I stay single is another day that feels somehow wasted.
Anyway, I guess thats enough whining for now.
“Don’t worry, be happy”
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April 21st, 2003 at 10:52 am
Troy, time to find some new girls to date
I hear that they have some good ones in church….
April 21st, 2003 at 10:25 pm
Troy-
I sympathize with your situation. Of course everyone wants to be loved (in love-whatever).
BUT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST: DO NOT, I REPEAT, DO NOT GO FOR THE 17 YEAR OLD. But, I’m sure you know that already.
I want to challenge you to think that maybe you’re not ready YET for someone new. To me, you seem still very resentful and bitter about Randi (or was it Brandy?). Anyways, I could be completely wrong and I hope you aren’t mad at me for saying this.
I guess, to me, I would want to feel free from my past. I wouldn’t want it to be part of my life anymore. Of course it’s there and I can’t change what has happened. I guess what I am saying is is that I want to get passed the bitterness and anger, before I move on to someone new. You know, have a clean slate, so to speak.
Oh well. Whoever reads this, lemme know what you think.
-Laura
April 22nd, 2003 at 12:50 pm
could someone explain to me the deep, compelling need to share your whines and complaints with a computer?
you have friends…have a conversation.
April 22nd, 2003 at 6:23 pm
No one here is sharing with a computer. This site is a way for people to communicate with each other.
April 28th, 2003 at 5:04 pm
Thank you for the defense … Skeezix.
I must say that I’m a little hurt and offended that someone would say that about my self-pittying ramblings of nonsense.
That’s what Randi always called it when I tried to talk to her about the way I felt “whining”.
Call it what you want, I just say what I feel. If you can’t say what you feel then what use is there in talking at all?
May 1st, 2003 at 10:39 am
Troy-
I think what the other person meant was that if you are upset about your situation, that’s fine-there is nothing wrong with how you feel. I think that they were just wondering why you are discussing your feelings on a computer and not with your friends.
Ya see what I mean??
-Laura
PS. I don’t think that person implied anything about self- pitty nonsence?
May 5th, 2003 at 9:18 am
Right, but he wasn’t discussing with a computer, he was using the website as a forum to discuss with friends.
May 10th, 2003 at 11:03 am
I’m glad to see that this is now the second most replied-to article on the site.
See we ARE communicating ;P